Endless indeed Fellows...

You know diving-in is not the hard part, the hard part in my opinion is 'before' I would do so. Diving-in is the beyond and indeed the aftermath; it's "the courage of doing it anyway".

When a fear fallows me and worst chases me in my night dreams, I'll soon discover or uncover I've been the one putting it out there, (and not to punish myself for doing so or even beating myself up) but when fear looms in my psyche and imagination for too long I tend to become numb to it and think it's rather ok and normal to have. ... for so long.

Well Perhaps it is, perhaps a particular fear can be helpful in preventing 'the worst' or 'something bad to happen'. Like a dear friends once told me "When the fire alarm goes off, don't go out and shoot it! or disregard it because it scares you, Respond! and do act on the appropriate and safety measures!" So fear is an emotion to respect no doubt there, but in respecting it one needs to hear it for what it is and harness it's wisdom.

To the point; So I've jumped in and I dove in into this world of the unknown and 'worst' into this world of 'being seen'. Any risks? Yes for sure let's not pretend it's totally safe, we do need boundaries. But sometimes the worst that can happen is to discover 'there was nothing to be afraid off' ... it's like "Oh my god! after all this time that was it?? "

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For the longest time the fear of exposer and selling my work has been my foe. I've come up with some pretty amazing excuses of why 'I should not', "... better not" "... not done yet" "They won't like it" "I won't like it" "it's not the right place" etc, etc, etc ... (fill your own space) but the funny thing, or should I say the reassuring thing is, I'm not alone. I'm not the only one that felt that, and has imagined it too. Still does that mean its' true? can I trust it? can I trust myself!??

So in my night dream, when I do stop running around and when I do let that fear catch up, I will feel in the terror but with courage and trepidation that's when I muster courage and I look at it in the eye, in that moment, and almost once and for all... I see it for what it is as it finally reveals it's truer identity.

A two foot wave is scary for a two year old (and rightly so for his/her own safety) but that same wave, for a teen or and adult is merely up to the knees and can actually be fun! ... Imagine that!

Synopsis; The water is not as cold as I imagined it to be, rather, it's a lot more pleasing over all... and besides, it's summer and it's time to enjoy it!

"Live long and prosper...Nanoo, nanoo" as Mork would say.

Whatever you do, keep your art alive!